I was exceptionally weird.

guess everything is pretty weird today.
like myself,my body,feelings.
I feel weird.
sore throat + feverish + the weather makes the surrounding super cold! + need to rack my brain cells for science modules today.
that makes a sucky start of my day.):
For bernadette chow(:
And i seem to be really hostile towards fated today.
Sorry fated.made you worried for me.like the entire day.
Yes,for a million times,i wana thanks you for always being there for me.I will do too.
Please don't feel sad over some things that you can't do for me,
please don't so noob can.haha.
If not,I shall make you guilty-for-life.(:
After school,met jiahao for movie+ dinner in lailai + starbucks(like what i expected,he fails to order my desire drink! but nvm la!)
Ice mocha frapacino + cermal drizzle inside(well blend together)
My self edited drink.
And i only introduced this to fated.(:
"STOP GRINNING AT THIS UH,FATED^^"
feel so much better after leaving school,
have a good laugh over the movie,
Enjoyed the lailai dinner,
chilling at starbucks,
cab home like again.
yes,and the grape rock sticky sweet is damn Niceeee.holy nice.I swear.
thanks friend,for the sweet.
You did reduced my emoness.(Y) hahah!
oh yah,
I really need to study hard for UT 3.
Strong motivation is needed by Renee tan.
Looking forward upcoming plan for hui si's 18.
I wana watch inception.seems like everyone have watched it already! argg.):
Thats all.
hope what I thought today,was just a illusion.
This is not gona happen.It will never be.
yes.

affectedgirl93@

suddenly,I miss all those crazy times.A year ago.
And it literally reminds me everything that had happened A year ago.
A silly girl who never fails to force herself to carry a smile.
I mean me,not her.
But I'm pretty glad to have her by my side at that moment.
(: teehee.



































Affectedgirl93@hotmail.com. -Not for adding,It's solely describing the way I am nowww.
sounds really loser,but yes,I think I am totally a loser.zzz.
People affected by mutual feelings from either friends,family or anything that is part of their life,
I do too.
But I was also affected by some non-frictional music or mv.
Totally noob to the core.
I should seriously stop all these man.
Nowadays I was frequently late for class,
and my blurness had caused me being such a din.
I actually took the wrong bus and landed me up to my market place and not to the interchange,
wasted hell lots of time,
and late for school like again.
"-0.5" ):
so tempted to buy marc jackob's tote and broken stock sandals.
But there is already a whole in my pocket nowww.A medium size one.):
yesterday,when bernard was talking to me about his friend's problem and stuff,
I've a sudden thought about fated :/
It will never be easy.I do really hope one day,fated will change for what I said.):
How i wish I can walk through this path of life at ease.This is never gotta happen but at least I try to hope.hahah!
argg 2 weeks more,I gotta miss school
not for the boring modules(e.g.programming),but my classmates.especially all those talk cocks and lepak sessions.you people will be greatly miss by renee tan! (:

Like 10000000 things floating in my mind.

feels reckless nowww and it's weird feeling this way on a sunday.

starbucks with two act cute :)
Yunnie attika daemar,thanks for telling me from your bottom of your heart.About everything.
I love you,babe.

I miss them.really much.look forward for the next outing at yog(:

Finally posted pictures,

if not my blog will a god damn plain emo post.

I've been slacking right from the morning till the night,

just by staying at home.so sucky.

Have been pondering about things again(okay,I think I'll never stop getting emo)

but in a good way,really.

was emotionally affected yesterday,

when i went out with yunnie to catch despicable me!

That show was awesomeee,love the small girl!

kay I shall pray to god,

the next time i were to bear a child,

she must be as cute as the small girl! :)

yunnie and I were two noobs,

wondering around north point to seek for the yishun theatre.

so adventurous of us.

Just short of the maps,torchlights,backpack and etc.

hurhurhur.

Had a heart-to-heart talk later on,

after we settle down at macdonald(starbucks is fully packed:/)

yeah,tear for alittle at there and tear another bit while going home in the mrt.

Loser me.

when can I ever not be so weak.

Strong pills,I need you.

But thanks god,

he/she(if god appear to be a girl/guy:)) gave me an affinity to meet the friends who have great significiance to my life.:)

To elsie chong yun yuan(if you happen to see this post):

Hoi,Bitch like forever oie oie oie.yes,I'm madly touched by your words in msn la!reguardless where we go,yes,I'll never forget you.Friends,like forever (: Hate you la,why friendship with me for 9 years,make me loveee you so much.Remember the days we hang out together with xinyi and huiwen for the 6 years.greatly miss by renee tan! "we have to let go enough to be happy,hold on enough not to repeat the same mistake" I'll mark your words.I mean it.Still remember those days when my relationship failed,you ask me to cry it out.just cry it out,I'll feel better.YES and I really feel better and I am glad of your presence.Bloody hell,can freaking create one FACEBOOK ACCOUNT ANOT YOU? make me piss only.Don't act one anti social can anot,msn isn't the IN thing la.I love you,elsie.:)

I'm happy,probably only for now.

Recently,
alot of things hurt me badly.really.
It does.
Family.
Everyday I return home happily with a smile on,
just hoping that home will be the place I can keep my smile on.
I'm wrong.Very wrong.totally.
It's bad, feeling so empty and devastated at home these few days.
Just hope things will turn out well for me.
Finally brought my formal shirt,
after like 3 days of tough search.
End up,
brought a ralp lauren slim fit long sleve.
This is how fickle minded I am.Yes,admiting now.
Life so far,
taught me well of friendship.
It made me really cherish the friends I had.
And today,
This silly girl tears really made me know the significance of how I am,as a friend.In her heart.
Her tears make it so true that,
I nearly cried too.NEARLY.
I guess this is why we are really fated to be as friends.(:
Holidays please reach me now.
National day please reach me now too.I wana see fireworks.
so manyyyy thingsss in my brain liaoooooooo.

I blow up my top.

Too abnormal to even blog here,today.
I think I'm stress.
Programming is one of the killer.
It killed me.made me feel so aimless.
so glad that I only do it over for just sem 1!
after 4 weeks,
I'll be parting with my class.
From the day I told myself "wah shit,how? no friends eh?"
till today,I start to doubt about this sentence which I've said two months ago.
I guess,I'll miss this class.(:
A very short limit of time,
but bundle with friendship,happiness,bonds,quarrels,partial team,
I'll never forget all these.
It marks the first ever memories since I entered poly.
Almost forgotten about my cui programming,
okay just wish for a pass.
Just a pass will do,
Renee tan isn't greedy.AT ALL.
(:

I need energy-boast birdnest!

Freaking shag.
worldcup is the cause.i swearrrrrrrr.
And i found out something,
I think I'm really not cut out for bets/gamble.
I wish I have supernatural powers like paul,
who could predict wordcup within a tank with 2 box of country flag.
Just had lessons,
and today,
everyone is perfectly NOT normal.
left just 3 teams presentations,
i even have thoughts of partial.
facilator was pms today.Though is a he.
don't really favour this faci,so shall not even elaborate much.
sometimes,
i wonder why am i dwelling all these things,
which often remind me of my past.
yes,i do miss it.
only happy moments.not the sad ones.
I found out something.
Frequently,
when humans grab hold of too many things in his/her hands,
he/she will felt like letting it go.
similarly when humans let go all the things previously in his/her hands,
he/she will tend to yearn all the things to be place on their hands again.
How ironical human beings can be.
so do i.
I've many random thoughts.
hope I do fufill them after my UT.

when you're contented of your life right now,It starts to screw up the next moment.

Arg.
why.
why life must be a darn astronology of a rollercoaster.
When you are right up,
feeling contented of what you had,
been living till your fullest,
You came crashing down to the lowest point of life.
I'm aint strong.
I'm utterly affectionate.
I'm a fool.
whats more.
I think huge blows is difinitely a threat in life.
I seriously felt like I'm polluting my blog with my anger.
argg.
sorry blog.
I shall post pictures for the next time.