Revive.

I revive -.- hurhurhur. It seems like how many decades since I had last blog. Many changes in my life lately. Don't know from where or when I should start to relate from. still the weak girl who cannot take up any blows. frickle minded girl who can't make up my decisions. low-self esteem girl who hardly can take any critism. affected girl who cant seem to not bother about the surroundings. nothing much changes, but I always thought that my piriority did. It changed unknowingly. prob the things which I had been through,changed me quite alot. relationship will prob be the last thing I will ever think of. fate still runs my life. strong believer of it,no matter what. I realise this is the best reason to many unexplainable things.

I need a real change.

Suck to be over-sensitive,
suck to assume things easily as what i seen,
sucks to stereotype.
sucks to be a loser.(blame the whole matter on myself even I know its not my fault)
Thats me.so me.
I seriously don't mind giving in to make things pleasant again.
If this can made anybody happy,I don't mind.
But why situation always appear to be such a wreck even how much effort i tried in salvaging it.
why.
Always thought that compromising will difinitely helps,
but realised it dont.NOT AT ALL.
In turn,people took for granted of it.
why can't people see the point of what I am doing.
I need a change.
A real change.

I finally revived my blog!

Suck to be over-sensitive,

suck to

I'm DAMN SHAG.

Feels damn shag.
My daily routine is like sleeping from 2-3am till next morning 10/11am.
seriously feels sick of the entire routine.
cos it makes feel more shag only.
The entire day,
I can get very reckless/weak even performing some effortless task.
Quite a Goner man
I wonder when When can I be as Rong guan huan fa(energectic) as before.
Holidays is the cause,I swear la.
Recently,
had been doubting on certain things.
Probably,
when people around me starts to make a din out of it,
only then I starts to make such assumption.
And yay this assumption,was like super wrong.
Best.These assumptions made me think,worry, feeling helpless for a period of time.
phew.
can't believe we actually thought the same thing and didn't know how to bring the words across to each other.
But I'm really glad that things are clearer to us now.
(:
going to bro's chalet later,
hope it will be fun(at least not till the extend I will emo in the room)
Gosh.sounds like a stupid emo shit.
omg.yeah I need to catch up with my exams already!
Panicking nowww.

Vacation so far.

A day out with this 9 years bitch.yes,we never fail to not make a scene at almost everywhere.
weird people,weird hangouts,weird thoughts.Because this is how we bond,for the ultimate 9 years.
I'll miss you.meet up like soon again!
oh yah please don't come action to me "your xiaohonghong" hahah!

The most potential knight.(Y)

Yog click 5 concert!A day when we got really high! blast of music+loud screams+Jumping rapidly

A awesome night with w14B+camwhore likeneverending + lepak/talk cock + drinks

before we officially finished our year 1 sem 1.

I love you all.(:

So far,

Vacation was so great.

Great in a sense,

I'm like enjoying myself almost everyday.

gosh.(At least,I did abit of revision*just to keep myself calm*)

Maybe I should try studying alittle for cognitive and enterprise later on,which is quite impossible.Motivation,I need you.

Starbucks ice mocha frappocino seemed to be always the thing which can motivate me.

At least a motivator.

but buying starbucks everyday,is not cheappp at all.

gotta cut down my expenses.

beechow was like also saying I am always eating Ho liao everydayyy.

kay,from now on,

Renee tan will go for lok pok,cheap skate food.

even something classy,I make sure it comes with a voucher/coupon which made it worth it.

Lok pok enough?

seriously auntie to the core already,I swear!

I've a sore red wound which might appeal to infection ):

pray hard that it'll be okayyy soon.

It's fugly and made me worried that it might takes months to even recover.

haissss.howwwwwww.wei she me.
Its been quite a long time(1 year plus),since we talk.

After a moment of .............................

suddenly,was wondering how have you been/how you're living.

Be it with your girl or be it the guy whom I last saw with a smile on.

I just hope you're doing fine. :)

For now,

Renee tan gotta study hard.

real hard.in the days not working/no outings.

concentration pills,i need you badly too.

I think people who is reading this or know me well,

will probably be thinking "She and her whatever pills again ZZZZ"

(:

It marks my first ever sem 1.

15 weeks passed as though it's yesterday.
really fast.
And it's really a miracle,
to make such a close bond with my classmates.
went singapore river,
take a bite,drank breezer,talk cock/lepak about how much we'll miss each other.
Or probably for the first time,
I've seen the soft sight of w14b.
Hug every of my classmates,
I fought back with my tears.real badly.
And Made a final group hug before we finally depart.
Damn.
gona miss them.like badly too.
Okay I've yet to have any comfirmed plans for holiday.
But i gotta study for UT3,then work i guess.
I need moneh and something which can burn part of my holiday.
I can't be a lifeless soul rotting at bukit batok.
damn loserish.
sudden wishlist for a makeover
feeling really sick about myself.
like the clothes and shoes.
I need more wedgessssss.
Yes,a strong motivation for me to workkkk.
Yes,i'll upload all the pics of hui si'18 and w14B soonnnnnnnnn.
For the last time,
I gona say to you guys,
I love you.
Though you know we're not able to get into the same class anymore,
we're so gona meet up like before.
Thanks for every moments you guys create.
It's all etched in my heart.

I wana have inception in my life.

If I could at least have a moment of inception,
I'll enjoy the most desirable dream till my fullest.
:)
sadly,I think I can't.
reality is all that I need to face at the end.
sigh.
how i wish I can just store all the happy memories and discard all the bad ones.
But no.
we can't make things the way we want it to be.
"what if our life was actually an inception"
It hit me.real hard.
Fated,You will be guilty for life if you see this.
MUHAHAHA
recently,
national day,
enjoyed huisi's 18,
drank and had a hangover(best,and still need to go to school the next morning)
really love the photo frame I made for hui si.
I kept peeping at it every now and then.
haha.like a sickoooo.
Because it simply reminds me all the happy memories we had been through.
really much.since 3 years ago.:)
I brought her a pair of wedges too.
And for the first time,
she wore it and same height as me.
HAHHAHAHA.Kay,i shall stop saying/doing sinful actssss.
:)
went over to timah,
have ho liao dinner with kianyong.
forever,
we'll be like eating 3 dishes plus 1 big bowl of soup.
fat shit.like need go tuff club after eating.zzz.
And he love to stuff all the food into my bowl of rice.
And we'll be like forever aiming each other rice bowl and stuff with food.
yes damn loserish.I knowwww.
But always have a awesome dinner everytime i go there.(Y)
And todayyy
I experienced a sudden pierce of pain through my flesh ):
I stood on the ultimate last step of the bus door when I am suppose to stand on at least the last second of the steps
some inconsiderate people somehow push me back.
The bus door somehow scratched my flesh and left me a sore red bloody flesh.
I didn't realise I was actually bleeding throughout when I was cheonging to my class.
nearly faint at the sight when I saw it):
fated accompany me throughout.
thanks idiot.always never fail to be there for me
:)
On the way back home,
was told about certain things.
kept pondering about my own flaws.
I dont know.
All these led me think that I kinda suck.
yes affected.pretty affected by this friend words.
was pretty agitated and piss by the words,
but thought for a moment,
maybe I really suck this time round.
Gotta work hard at all these flawsss,renee tan.);
tommorow is the last day of school.
15 weeks of school with you guys,
I'll never forget.
be it joy,laughter,sorrows,anxiety we shared.
All these stored in renee tan's memory vividly.
Thanks w14B.
I love you all.